My strongest addiction as a single was reading. Being alone was bliss and gave me ample time to devour as much literature as one could come by. I had very little care for what happened in other social spaces. When I got married some years ago I had fears my lifestyle might have some effect on my family bonding, so I chose family. I found a great partner in my wife and have bonded excellently with my kids. But my love for the books and writing have suffered tremendously. A few months ago, I decided to return to reading. If you were a reader you would know that if you've ever read a book that it has a way of reaching back to you whenever you saw the title. Going through my shelve, I realized I could sense and recollect every book's content by a mere touch; these were old friends indeed. And it struck me I have not bought new ones in a while. I have returned to reading, having made friends with the kids. I know they must sometimes wonder why Daddy suddenly has to stare fo...
Dear daughter, As I look down on this blank, unlined paper waiting to get inscribed with ink, I could imagine an angelic face on the brink of making a transition into a world of many wonders. I want you to know that you have been loved already. I could only imagine what it’s like over there on the other side, so I think you should consider it a fatherly advice and hold on to as much memory as you could while crossing over to this journey full of treachery and pain, hopelessness, and yet permeated with a lot of joy, and I hope you will come to add to its beauty. It is a world of many influences. A world of riches and poverty, highs and lows, wisdom and folly, fame and shame: a world of immense prejudice and little justice. But it is also a world where you can be anything you want to be, if you don’t let anyone tell you otherwise! You are a woman, yes? The world expects a lot from your kind yet! So you are also awaited. I want you to know you can do all that without lett...
The most difficult part of letting go is not the tears that are shed, not the pains the heart may be going through, but the coming to terms with the fact that someone you hold so dear does not, or has stopped feeling the same way about you, the knowing that things will never be as you once knew them. At this point you are prone to reflections of the good times that were once shared, open to regrets of sacrifices and the much you had given up for their sake and that of the union, and then you surrender to the surge of painful contemplations. There will always be blames whether on you or on them, but the most essential point is that they have preferred someone else to you, and have left. And in spite of your good intentions, your love, your strength, you find yourself only too powerless to stop them. Sometimes the urge to hold on, which normally stems from prevailing sense of insecurity, can be so overwhelming that you begin to devise desperate measures to have them back, make costly mov...
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